General feeling like no one cares. Genuinely. Will I ever be appreciated? Supported? 

I have been disappointed time and time again. Better not to get my hopes up.

Let’s just leave it as that. No human bothers. Not a single friend or loved one. No one at all

Day 128:
K. Mel, chill. “Jesus’ Blood Stops Evil In Its Tracks” Ya. Even the evil in your freakin’ family. Whatever. Don’t even bother. Rest your emotions. Rest your mind. It’s been a fking long day. Let Him take care of you. You simply need to rest.

Peace v

The fuck is this? Want to tithe also cannot ah. What kind of home is this, seriously. What’s your problem. So much for oh you’re old enough now I want you to control your own money. Everyday still checking on my wallet. Asking me where my money go all. I don’t need to eat food? I don’t need to take public transport? I don’t have to pay for my school notes, class/cca funds? I don’t buy food back for the family? THE SHIT YOU WANT LA. Stop being such an anal bitch, you controlling freak. This is going overboard.

I never asked for a big house, big car, comfy big place. All I wanted was a home. A family.

Day 127:
Time is seriousy running out. What. The. Shit. Everything’s passing too quickly. And it’s already hectic May. And soon, it’ll be the end of it. It’s like we’re all speeding through. Lord, I really need you to take control of my life. I can’t do this by myself at all. It’s just too much to handle. The stress seems to be building. But I choose to rest in you Lord. I barely have time for myself now. Jesus, redeemer of time. Teach me. Impart to me time managements skills haha I seriously need it. Holy spirit flow in me. I want to follow your lead. Thank God I have the mind of Christ. And “The mind of Christ doesn’t grow old”. My memory is sharp. My mind is fast and quick. Understanding is mine. Clarity is mine. Application is mine. Lord you are my wisdom. SUPPLY SUPPLY SUPPLY!